the venting

it seems like everything has been downhill ever since ive done those bad things. i mean they were pretty bad but ive already learnd from them. but somehow, everything always finds a way of coming back to me. like last night, i left the house for 5 mins and now i cant do anything today. i dont think i can do anything ever now. break was pretty fun but i only did like 4 things. and also, i messed up with girls. damn i dont even wanna get into that. well basically life is hard to enjoy. sure, im gratful for everything that i have but dont i get to enjoy it? i mean break is almost over. once school starts again im gonna be on quadruple lockdown. mann idk. it just sucks how my parents think of me as this hellla bad kid when im not even. i see worse like everyday. but thats just me. fuck, aman just came by to pick me up and i had to tell him i cant go. well anyways, peace